photos to show off

Location: Wallace Monument & the journey up. Scotland

2:29am

edradour.scotland.

this will be my last blog ever written in the wee morning hours of my exam...

at long last...today shall be my last paper..
9:30am - 11:30am

the final of all finals....my uni life must come to an end...for a new chapter awaits

pray that I'll pass and graduate!!! I can't wait to get it all off my shoulders....3 and a half years flew pass but yet at the same time it crawled through the hours

hours of studying, hours of research work, hours of academic work

the same dilemma spans through the life of a student...we just wanna pass it and get it over with...for some nothing less than a distinction...for some like me...i just wanna get the cert and chuck it in a drawer...only use it and when I need to apply for some job~

i say i study hard..but others studied harder
i say i play hard..but others played harder
so i say stop comparing, i live my life the way i live it
and my fruits shall be my judge

my life is already secured
my future ordained
but yet hope the intangible
keeps me humble

it was by grace that i came this far
it shall be by grace that i finish
i cannot boast of my own
for i have nothing to boast of
only thing that i can boast of
would be that
God is good, all the time
and all the time, God is good

a praising heart in the storm

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

all that i have left for today, would be my faith and a praising heart...

rail roads of life

view.Loch Katrina.Scotland.

Rick Warren (REMEMBER HE WROTE 'PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE')
You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has, with his wife now having cancer and him having 'wealth' from the book sales. This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren,

'Purpose Driven Life ' author and pastor of Saddleback Church in California

In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:

People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.

One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.

I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal. God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity.

We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn't going to make sense.

Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.

The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort.

God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.

We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.

This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.

I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore.

Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life.

No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.

And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.

You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems.

If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness,'which is my problem, my issues, my pain.' But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.

We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy for her.

It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.

You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.

Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.

It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.

So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72

First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases.
Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.

Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation.

Fourth, I added up all that the chu rch had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free.

We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity?

Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.
That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.
God's Blessings on you toda

living life n my randomness justified

Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to 'cut back the calories'. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible !!

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word 'refrigeration' mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Who wants to be a millionaire' on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, 'How about going to lunch in a half hour?' She would gas up and stammer, 'I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain.' And my personal favorite: 'It's Monday.' She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because we cram so much into our lives, we tend to even schedule our headaches. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained. We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet. We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of 'I'm going to,' 'I plan on,' and 'Someday, when things are settled down a bit.'

When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord.

My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process The other day , I stopped the car and bought a triple-Decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy.
Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to......not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask 'How are you?' Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child, 'We'll do it tomorrow.' And in your haste, not see his sorrow? Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say 'Hi?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away. ... Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.





'Life may not be the party we hoped for... But while we are here we might as well dance!'

it's thursday~

mouse pad.love it.gift.lil bro.

well....3 exams are done..and i've got 3 more to go...as i've gotta resit PP3 -_-

time is really flying pass by....
first it was exams a long way more
than arghhh only a day left
than argghh...i'm sitting for the exams...

than argghhh...how to do??

than arghhh...what on earth are those ppl writing about???
got so much to write r???
XD

today it's thursday....i'm not too bothered to be in the library today...plus the fact that my buddy won't be in...so lagi no motivation to go...

you know what i miss?
i miss talking in the malaysian slang where i can just joke easily and pull off a laugh from the audience....here i gotta change my slang...adopt a different way of speaking....a bit difficult though...no as smooth as i want it to be...but maybe a little while longer...i'll just get the whole drift of conversing in ENGLISH!~

it's 12:20 noon ...
i went to work this morning....it's a brilliant job! thank GOD for it!!!
i get paid to talk...a whole whopping £12/hr for 2 hours and than an hour for prep work...which thanks to my experiences ...no prep needed for me...muwahaha
the last session of this mentor thing ends next thursday...i wonder how am i gonna wake up!! as wed is my last paper..muwahahahahahaha

i don't expect to be in bed till at least 4 or maybe 5am?!!? haha CAN'T WAIT

3 weeks of exams..is just wayyyy toooooo long....fatigue sets in....boredom sets in....can't be bothered sets in....SIGH...

than just now i got a phone interview...a part time job for 3 months....ideally starts in mid July...than it's perfect!~ i get paid like £7.94/hr ^^
21hours/ week ...3 months
ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching!!!!
in total i get like £2k whoooo hoooo
hahaha
convert to RM wah sei...kaya sial
haha

mmm...pray that i get something like £8/hr or more and in the city centre so i can just walk to work...hmm that is just brilliant beyond words!!
welp God grants the desires of my heart =)

hopefully my norway trip gets pulled off as well..now a lil problemo since stevo's family booked him a graduation cum bday holiday ...ka-dish...tsk tsk...we'll see we'll see
and than my road trip plan gets pulled off too...

hmm anyway...thinking of going to Uzbek...Germany...Czech...before i head on home...visa expires in Oct...so latest tht i'll be in UK would be Oct....than I need to get my butt out...drop by a few places...than home sweet home...KL my city my life...here I come!!!

i nearly forgot how much i miss my ppl back home!!
till one of my buddies emailed me....i shed a tear and nearly ended up crying! haha XD

but i'm still not sure yet whether i'll come back to UK or not...God has still yet to open the door for me....so till than...KL it is =D

I've got sooo many things planned up to do when I get back...I've grown up!
Learned a whole lot of stuff..
I must get some time aside to write down all the things that I've learned and the things that God has brought me through =)
I wrote some amazing stuff...unfortunately i think i deleted it...ka-dish...

keep me in your prayers!!! that i'll graduate with a masters degree!!!
just want to graduate...not bothered with titles anymore...would be nice to have it...but it doesn't matter in my life...i know where i'm going...i just want the title for fun anyway XD

i think i best get a nap...or study...nap sounds better =)

parties parties parties parties....

clearer skies...

Guy Fwakes 07

i once thought the skies were blue

i once thought the seas were blue



slowly but surely

the unknown revealed

out of the abundance of the heart

words are formed



things unseen

voices unheard

a journey travelled

a soul sojourn



the day started chilly

the clouds clouded

but as day came

clearer skies...

rhyming pimping

a shot from island of cumbrae

Gibberish perish fish
Trying to rhyme and mime
May not be the ideal plan
Not the slang in which I rhyme

Pure simple words
Pure simple thoughts
Uncluttering my mind
Emptying my thoughts

How easy life was
How simple it was meant to be
But it is still simple
It is still easy

Living on the high road
Living on the edge
Carefree and without worries
I was meant to be

Maybe there is something bigger
I knew it all along
But not just yet
But not just...

Putting down on paper
Placing for my eyes to read
Makes it less of a hassle
To store it all in the massive maze

3 millions years of data storage
Have you ever got lost?
Not in the living sense it is possible
Drifting into the unknown yet somehow it is known

Life with all its intricacies
Life with all its details
Syphoning yet storing
Once again

Once again I come to the conclusion
It is not meant to be
That is the right question.

info 4 juniors - post n parcels n mails

heya mates

see if u wanna post up any info regarding the above ...much appreciated =)
esp if u receive parcels every month or so!~

Q from junior
Neways, I got a few questions about mailing stuff to glasgow..Previously I asked u about it before, but I still have some other questions...;P
My sis-in-law is an air stewardess and she'll be flying to london end of may.
So she'll be helping me to mail some stuff by air from london to glasgow.
Problem is, I don't have my address yet. So how would it be possible for her to mail it to my place?
Or should I use my senior's address first?
But u guys are also moving out from the flat soon right?
*blur*
haha

I just need to know how to mail my stuff there and when it reaches the village office, will it be safe to leave it there for a few weeks till i arrive?

welp best would be that ur sis post it as late as possible...than you gotta make sure that the parcel doesn't require your signature to receive it...because if not than u'll have to go to the post office to collect it..and its quite a bit of distance to carry a big box~

yea you can leave at the village office...and than collect it when you arrive...put in a note to inform them would be good too..
my batch mates might post up some other useful info as well..i don't ship things over..so no idea..hehe

God

YOU SAY	GOD SAYS	BIBLE VERSES
You say: 'It's impossible'	God says: All things are possible	(Luke 18:27)
You say: 'I'm too tired'	God says: I will give you rest	(Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: 'Nobody really loves me'	God says: I love you	(John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
You say: 'I can't go on'	God says: My grace is sufficient	(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: 'I can't figure things out'	God says: I will direct your steps	(Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: 'I can't do it'	God says: You can do all things	(Philippians 4:13)
You say: 'I'm not able'	God says: I am able	(II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: 'It's not worth it'	God says: It will be worth it	(Roman 8:28 )
You say: 'I can't forgive myself'	God says: I Forgive you	(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: 'I can't manage'	God says: I will supply all your needs	(Philippians 4:19)
You say: 'I'm afraid'	God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear	(II Timothy 1:7)
You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'	God says: Cast all your cares on ME	(I Peter 5:7)
You say: 'I'm not smart enough'	God says: I give you wisdom	(I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: 'I feel all alone'	God says: I will never leave you or forsake you	(Hebrews 13:5)

life

-taken from my walk in Balloch country park-

For hardship does not spring from the soil, nor does trouble sprout from the ground.
Yet man is born to trouble as surely as sparks fly upward. (Job 5:6-7)
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Uncle Bernie grew up on a farm in Canada. When he was four years old his dad woke him up at 3:00 in the morning. "Cup" his dad said, "get up. We have to go down to the barn."

Cup was his father's nickname for Uncle Bernie. In German it means "the head" and in his family it was his father's way of calling Bernie "The Smart One".
When they got to the barn a mare was giving birth to a foal. "Cup, what do you see?" his father asked.

"I see a momma horse having a baby," Bernie replied. The mare was in trouble and his father had to reach in and turn the foal. "Cup, what do you see?" his father asked. "I see a baby horse coming out."

"Cup what do you see?" he asked again. "I see a baby horse shivering on the straw."

"Cup, what do you see now?" his father asked. "I see the baby horse trying to stand up and the momma horse licking it."

"Cup, what do you see?" his father continued to prod. "I see the baby horse struggling to stay on its feet."

"Cup, what do you see now?" he asked. "I see the baby horse standing on weak legs and the mother nuzzling it."

"Cup, what does it mean?" he asked. "Daddy, I don't know."

"Cup, it means that where there is struggle there is life," he answered.
Where There is Struggle There is Life. Those words sunk into me as Uncle Bernie finished the story.

Source: Embrace the Struggle by Tom Ziglar
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I have no need of a bull from your stall or of goats from your pens,for every animal of the forest is mine, and the cattle on a thousand hills. (Psalms 50:9-10)

Not long after Dallas Seminary was founded in 1942, bankruptcy knocked at its doors. By noon on one particular day, every creditor threatened foreclosure. That morning, the founders of the Seminary met to pray in president Lewis Sperry Chafer's office. They asked God to provide the needed funds.

Harry Ironside was part of that prayer meeting. When it was his turn to pray, he prayed in his characteristically pointed manner: "Lord, we know that the cattle on a thousand hills are thine. Please sell some of them and send us the money."

Meanwhile, as these men were praying, into the seminary's business office came a tall Texan. Addressing a secretary, he said, "I just sold two carloads of cattle in Fort Worth. I've been trying to make a business deal go through and it won't work, and I feel that God is compelling me to give this money to the seminary. I don't know if You need it or not, but here's the check."

Well aware of the seriousness of the seminary's financial situation, and knowing that it was for that purpose the founders were gathered in prayer, the secretary took the check to the door of the president's office and timidly knocked. When she finally got a response, Chafer took the check out of her hand and stared at it with amazement. The amount matched the exact size of the seminary's debt. Looking at the signature on the check, he recognized the name of the cattle rancher.

Turning to Harry Ironside, he said, "Harry, God sold the cattle!"

Source: Howard Hendricks in Stories for the Heart compiled by Alice Gray

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i've already posted like 3 new post my blog in the span of 15mins earlier on...

so i shall not have an overkill on my blog...

thus a note it shall be...

it's sunday and i'm the library after church....that never happens back home....hmm probably it's because over here, i'm just like 5mins away from the library? plus the fact that studying in my room is totally not working (during the day....it's possible in the night)

*memories jogged: "how is it possible?" one of my buddies seem to always use that in a slang-ish way. grins*

hmmm I think it's better to just put this in my blog...haha
www.fionnatan.blogspot.com


now typing in blogger

hmm...well first few hours was fine....now i'm getting restless...doesn't help with the fact that i'm studying alone today...for the first time....completely without MSN, Skype...all those sorts....no one connected alive is communicating with moi...it's just me and my laptop...and no one else...
it...........sucks...

oh well...it's 6:30pm now.... i've got 200 slides to read up for genes....and i'm only at slide no. 53 a quarter of it down...and 3 more quarters of it to go..

i miss playing bball...and going to the gym....my muscles have completely deteriorate (exaggeration employed)

by the way...greek yogurt with swiss muesli (no sugar) plus jam is really good...fast, easy, convenient

haven't been cooking or baking anything special lately....

shall just put my life to stand still for awhile...at least for another 17days....

3mins away from studying..

This is a true story of a young college girl who passed away last month, at
Shah Alam. Her name is Priya; she was hit by a lorry.

She was studying in PTPL college. She had a boyfriend named
Shankar. He lives in Johore. Both of them are true lovers. They were always
on the phone with each other. Priya could always be seen with her handphone.

She spends most of the day talking with Shankar. Priya's family knows about
their relationship. Shankar is very close with Priya's family.

Before she passed away she always said to her friends "If I pass
away please burn me with my handphone". She also said the same thing to her
parents.

After her death, people couldn't carry her coffin. Many people were there, a lot of
them tried to do so but still couldn't lift it, everyone had tried
to carry the coffin, the result was still the same, it felt very heavy.

Eventually, they called their neighbour, a Thai "bomoh" friend (Pak Darin).

He took a seat and started speaking to himself slowly. After a few minutes,

he said "this girl misses something here". Then her friends told Darin bout her

intentions to burn her with her phone. He then opened the coffin and place her phone,

together with the SIM card inside the casket.

After that they tried to carrying the coffin.

It could now be moved and they carried it into the van easily. Everyone
was shocked (can you feel the fear?).

Priya's parents didn't inform Shankar that Priya had passed away (poor
Shankar). After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom.

Shankar: "Atte, I'm coming home today. Please cook something nice for me.
Don't tell Priya that I'm coming home today; I want to surprise her."

Her mother replied, "You come home first, I want to tell you something very
important."

After he arrived at Shah Alam, they told him the truth about Priya.

Shankar thought that they were fooling around. He was laughing and said,
"Don't try to fool me .... tell Priya to come out ... I have a gift for her.
Please stop this nonsense."

Then they show him Priya's death certificate; they gave him proof to
make him believe.

Shankar started to sweat profusely. He said, "It's not true. We spoke
yesterday. She still calls me."

Shankar was shaking so badly when suddenly, his phone rang.

"See this is from Priya. See this ...." he showed the phone to Priya's
family. All of them told him to answer. He used the "speakerphone" mode. All
of them heard this conversation, loud and clear. No crossed lines, no
humming. It was Priya's voice! And there was no way others could use her
SIM card as it was nailed to the inside of the casket! They were so shocked and asked
for Pak Darin's help.

Pak Darin brought his master (Tok Chen) to investigate this disturbing mystery. He and Pak
Darin worked for 5 hours...then they discovered something...









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anytime, ANYWHERE!!!*

I WILL FOLLOW YOU... FOLLOW YOU WHEREVER YOU MAY GO...............hehehehehe

why we should share

a good one to share =)


A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea
And only two of the men on it were able
To swim to a small, desert like island.
The two survivors, not knowing what else to do,
Agree that they had no other recourse
But to pray to God.
However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.


The first thing the first man prayed for was food.
The next morning, the first man saw
A fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land,
And he was able to eat its fruit.

The other man's parcel of land remained barren.

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife.
The next day, another ship was wrecked,
And the only survivor was a woman,
Who swam to his side of the land.

On the other side of the island,
There was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house,
Clothes, more food.
The next day, like magic,
All of these were given to him.

However, The second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship,
So that his wife and he could leave the island.
In the morning, he found a ship docked
At his side of the island.

The first man boarded the ship with his wife
And decided to leave the second man on the island.
He considered the other man unworthy
To receive God's blessings,
Since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave,
The first man heard a voice from Heaven booming,
"Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"


"My blessings are mine alone,
Since I was the one who prayed for them,"
The first man answered.
"His prayers were all unanswered,
And so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him.
"He had only one prayer, which I answered.
If not for that, you would not have
Received any of my blessings."

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice,
"what did he pray for that I
Should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."

For all we know, our blessings are not
The fruits of our prayers alone,
But those of another praying for us.
Always remember to pray for others who
are in need.
For :
Friends n friends' familes
People on the road side
People who are rendered homeless due to natural calamities
People who are in their death beds
People who have lost their dear ones
People who are protecting our country in the borders
Prisoners
People who are trying to quit bad friends and addicted habits
And anyone who is need of our prayers...

broaden

the internet has definitely redefined the meaning of information sharing and circulation~

never in history have information been able to travel so quickly and so widely in just a short period of time...

*just doing some random typing..before I continue reading about genes and stuff*

anyway with information so readily available...it really opens up a whole new world of things...broadens our horizon...increases our knowledge...increase the number of perceptions known...

thoughts inspired by: (fwd email)
-carved from soap-

reflections

-josh groban: your song (moulin rouge)- playing on my laptop

Gamma camera schematic --> Drug Delivery System
Tue: exams commence

reflections off the glass window
memories forged
a picture to capture the moment

would this be it?


i hope you don't mind that i put it in words...*trails off*

blockade...

a picture from: in the train towards Island of Cumbrae

of all days....

today i woke up at 9:30am..bright and early (well at least in my opinion~)

planned to be in the library by 10:30am
did my stuff..off i went...

i saw blue tape...taping the whole entrance....i thought they might leave a gap for me to passage through....a policewomen was standing there...

i went closer...took a look...there's no gap..how am i suppose to get in??
than the policewoman greeted me...sorry we've fenced up the place....the whole access to the library...bla bla bla bla bla....i was like....and there's no other way to get in?
nope...sorry about that...

ka-dish....

text my study buddy...and turned around...and walked home.....
how am i suppose to study at home?...see i'm suppose to be studying...and here i am now blogging....my room is highly not conducive to study during the day....but at night...you can study....just during the day it's problematic....too much distraction....it's DAY i should be doing something else other than studying...that's what my brain thinks -_-

Al said that...just think about 3 more days till finals and you'll study.....
maybe that's not working for my brain ....


so a savior is needed....i shall head to my buddy's place to study ^^
gotta wait awhile more before i head out...

dear lord! grace is needed....
help me to study today!!~

from 10:50am till now...i'm still on the first half of the page.....

btw...can you imagine...just 18more days or so...till i'm done with uni!!??!!?!?!