1 yr of life packed up

desktop worth: Glasgow (one of the parks and many walks taken)

1 year has come to an end
...today would be last night here in JBC
my small lil' room...
from nothing-ness to Fionna's Room
and now...packing it all up

how time flew by
there were moments that seemed like an eternity
and yet eternity seemed like a moment
surreal...

my flatmates...whom I've been staying for a year
will no longer be my flatmates anymore
and to them I'm grateful for being such great flatmates
putting up with my insane doings at times
with the it's just Fionna to tell themselves that it's alright

people i've come to known
people i've come to love

sleep is knocking
but yet I do not wish to answer
for by doing so ....the night might seemed just a bit longer
to savor the last few hours that i have left

it's remarkable how life could change another
without knowing
without exception
paths intertwine

to the best flatmates that I could ever have
simply because I won't be staying in a flat anymore! haha
and would not trade anyone else for either one of YOU

my academic life have at long last come to an end
a big huge chunk of a chapter coming to an end
graduation awaits me
by His grace I graduate
I can only be awed

letting moments sink in...
till I type again ...not in JBC anymore

wheeeeeee!!!!!!

one of the beaches during our Inverness trip


journey to Inverness

hahaha this is exactly how I'm feeling now

done with my VIVA and thank GOD it went quite alright I'd suppose...since I could answer most of the Qs except for one ^^

wheeeeeeee

muwahahaha FIONNA TAN is back to enjoying her routine-less roller-coaster!!!!


*i gotta admit that I look cheeky* muwahaha

2:29am

edradour.scotland.

this will be my last blog ever written in the wee morning hours of my exam...

at long last...today shall be my last paper..
9:30am - 11:30am

the final of all finals....my uni life must come to an end...for a new chapter awaits

pray that I'll pass and graduate!!! I can't wait to get it all off my shoulders....3 and a half years flew pass but yet at the same time it crawled through the hours

hours of studying, hours of research work, hours of academic work

the same dilemma spans through the life of a student...we just wanna pass it and get it over with...for some nothing less than a distinction...for some like me...i just wanna get the cert and chuck it in a drawer...only use it and when I need to apply for some job~

i say i study hard..but others studied harder
i say i play hard..but others played harder
so i say stop comparing, i live my life the way i live it
and my fruits shall be my judge

my life is already secured
my future ordained
but yet hope the intangible
keeps me humble

it was by grace that i came this far
it shall be by grace that i finish
i cannot boast of my own
for i have nothing to boast of
only thing that i can boast of
would be that
God is good, all the time
and all the time, God is good

a praising heart in the storm

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

all that i have left for today, would be my faith and a praising heart...

17

i've already posted like 3 new post my blog in the span of 15mins earlier on...

so i shall not have an overkill on my blog...

thus a note it shall be...

it's sunday and i'm the library after church....that never happens back home....hmm probably it's because over here, i'm just like 5mins away from the library? plus the fact that studying in my room is totally not working (during the day....it's possible in the night)

*memories jogged: "how is it possible?" one of my buddies seem to always use that in a slang-ish way. grins*

hmmm I think it's better to just put this in my blog...haha
www.fionnatan.blogspot.com


now typing in blogger

hmm...well first few hours was fine....now i'm getting restless...doesn't help with the fact that i'm studying alone today...for the first time....completely without MSN, Skype...all those sorts....no one connected alive is communicating with moi...it's just me and my laptop...and no one else...
it...........sucks...

oh well...it's 6:30pm now.... i've got 200 slides to read up for genes....and i'm only at slide no. 53 a quarter of it down...and 3 more quarters of it to go..

i miss playing bball...and going to the gym....my muscles have completely deteriorate (exaggeration employed)

by the way...greek yogurt with swiss muesli (no sugar) plus jam is really good...fast, easy, convenient

haven't been cooking or baking anything special lately....

shall just put my life to stand still for awhile...at least for another 17days....

reflections

-josh groban: your song (moulin rouge)- playing on my laptop

Gamma camera schematic --> Drug Delivery System
Tue: exams commence

reflections off the glass window
memories forged
a picture to capture the moment

would this be it?


i hope you don't mind that i put it in words...*trails off*

blockade...

a picture from: in the train towards Island of Cumbrae

of all days....

today i woke up at 9:30am..bright and early (well at least in my opinion~)

planned to be in the library by 10:30am
did my stuff..off i went...

i saw blue tape...taping the whole entrance....i thought they might leave a gap for me to passage through....a policewomen was standing there...

i went closer...took a look...there's no gap..how am i suppose to get in??
than the policewoman greeted me...sorry we've fenced up the place....the whole access to the library...bla bla bla bla bla....i was like....and there's no other way to get in?
nope...sorry about that...

ka-dish....

text my study buddy...and turned around...and walked home.....
how am i suppose to study at home?...see i'm suppose to be studying...and here i am now blogging....my room is highly not conducive to study during the day....but at night...you can study....just during the day it's problematic....too much distraction....it's DAY i should be doing something else other than studying...that's what my brain thinks -_-

Al said that...just think about 3 more days till finals and you'll study.....
maybe that's not working for my brain ....


so a savior is needed....i shall head to my buddy's place to study ^^
gotta wait awhile more before i head out...

dear lord! grace is needed....
help me to study today!!~

from 10:50am till now...i'm still on the first half of the page.....

btw...can you imagine...just 18more days or so...till i'm done with uni!!??!!?!?!

current setting

-living life in the library-

smooth black mac with a glowing white apple

wooden table with 6 chairs, 3 at each side

papers all about the table..but not too messy

a sliver sony vaio opposite me

a bright pink packet of Wrigley's Extra: strawberry flavor (flew all the way from Hong Kong = thanks to my pal =)

fossil watch, ring, bangles sitting on my right

Biopharmacy 5 opened right before me

test pads written

more than occasional crazy laughters

2 hours later

papers sprawled all over the table
hair ruffled
boredom sets in
argghhhhhhhh

XD

breathes...just a few more weeks...just a few more weeks

ages

ahhh once again...fionna tan is back

whole lot's been going on =D

enjoying my life while mugging away with books~

grabbing the remainder of my time with my mates here....as the academic year comes to an end...friends are leaving...bonds have been forged...laughters shared....much have pass

i had a superb random night today....from the humble number of 3 increased 3 folds to 9

another random dinner with brilliant laughters and oh so interesting food XD

life oh life~

coming towards the end of uni life

well...this week is my last week for my research project...and heck i'm way far from finishing... XD

haha alicia was saying, I've never been so last minute before in my entire uni life ....me? haha quite the less opposite...simply because there's just so much life to do apart from Uni =p

anyway it's not that i want to be so last minute at times....there are days in which i've sat down and nothing moves....so it's not my fault XD

unworthy tears of stress and frustration
nonsensical headaches which forces me to turn in
mental blockages which can't be accepted
tireless eye movements
over-clocking of body system

this is my work dock cum mac dock cum my life

ok this look pretty sad...haha...but normally it would look way better XD...and yes my breakfast lunch dinner tea = a red packet of biscuits ...oh wait there's more just for today



haha yup that's life ^^
smoky cheddar cheese and red wine =D

nice touch to a highly stress induced life?....haha...well well....back to enjoying.................*grins* just a lil while more ..and I'll be fine

reality ^^

well this post is related to the previous post Class Photo, since my buddy posted a comment on it...I might as well post up a blog on the reason of my reply ^^

hmm...although i didn't really fancy much the first photo wasn't simply cause i wasn't in it...but more towards that.....
so this shall be my thought trigger of what i've learned and gone through

whatever you do in life echoes through eternity

see a lot of people just tend to look at the surface of things that occurs simply because we are humans...we can't see through the hearts of man, only God can see through the hearts of man. we tend to judge by what we see most of the time and not by what we know. thus we assume a lot and we only know a little.

when you do good, others think that you have other intentions

we live in such a time where we always think that other people have other intentions apart from good....fortunately or unfortunately i happen to be naive most of the time, thinking of the good of people and forsaking the bad

welp...enough of my gibbering, for those who understands understands for those who don't don't

the photo of the first one (read the other post) contradicts my personality of love-being-in-the-centre-of-attention but represents the reality of what i do in my life, all across the board

but let's talk about this photo = this are of my life in which i have spent in on = Uni life

like i've said, the first photo contradicts my personality but represents my entire life in Uni of why i do the things i do

i've got a few batchmates that have asked me, why trouble yourself doing all these things?? Should just do it for yourself..
MK also stated to me before, Fionna you are doing too much for these people
some of my mates told me before, you bring on trouble and work upon yourself..since i go round complaining/moaning to them haha...i am just simply the type where i like to speak my mind out...i don't fancy keeping things in my head be it good or bad...and of course i only do that to friends in whom i trust...because they know me enough that i just need to keep my head straight by doing just that

most of the time..i just jokingly reply them..or don't at all

well my reasons are simple....to gain fame

haha =p

but if you've known me well enough...that wouldn't be the answer since i don't claim any 'glory' to my own name and i make it a point not to either...although i tease my mates with it ^^

i simply do it because i believe that the strong should help the weak...since i'm capable of it why not?
i simply do it because i believe it is worth doing for them...since some I call my friends and some are my batchmates
i simply do it because i believe in doing to others what you want others to do to you
i simply do it because i want to
i simply do it because i care
i simply do it because i have the betterment of everyone in mind
i simply do it because i like seeing people happy
i simply do it because Jesus told me to love everyone

are there times when i get frustrated?
of course...since i've already done so much yet people still expects more even when i don't have to do it and i'm doing it out of my freewill
of course...since sometimes what i do doesn't seem enough and not even some appreciation but worst got criticized instead

but hey..it's part of life...it's part of growing up...
in life you'll meet all kinds of people...and you just can't let everyone affect or dictate your life...
life is all about choices
you can't choose the situations but you can always choose your reactions =)

i just get better at what i'm doing
given the avenue to do something
being entrust to do something
given the opportunity to change someone's life for the better

at the end of it all...it's all about the people....i'm in the people business...and people matters....
so it's worth it =)

He too thought it was worth it when on the wooden cross He was nailed
Knowingly some would reject Him
Knowingly some would scorn at Him
Knowingly some would accept Him
Knowingly some would love Him
Obedience to the cross
He bought me my eternal life
He gave me hope
He gave me a second chance
And in return just for Him, anything and everything is worth it

class photo

welp thanks to Wei Meng who put in the effort to edit our class photo =D


and than I should thank myself for snapping the photo...see the empty spot right there in the front? pretty well made sure that, that is my spot =D

and of course I had to be in it =p so my name would do...the infamous fioNNa tan with the double N ;)

oats...

it's past midnight now...and i'm sitting here doing my research project....but than i got hungry...so i decided to try out some oats....i never liked eating porridge oats...it's only for sick ppl..and even whn i'm sick i don't eat oats....

must be this whole brain cells got fried process that suddenly i wanted to try out oats -_-

officially...for fionna tan...oats will be out of my menu....it only exits in cookies and cakes and desserts....but not as a porridge....i don't even know how i spooned half a bowl into my mouth...and now it's yuck XD

well...it smells nice though..coz i added in milo...sugar...honey...cinnamon..peanut butter..but there's still something lacking in it...probably it's the sweet condensed milk.....

but than again..maybe it's not too bad after.....but definitely i'll go for a roti canai or cheese naan anytime =p

oh well....i'm gonna stay up all night..so i need to have food in me......with my brain steaming out smoke every now and than...and suddenly mr. ache knocks on my brain loudly...which is not helping at all....every now and than...my brain freezes....

and i'm like ...nyam nyam nyam yuck yuck....on the oats......

well well...don't worry....just a few more days...and i'll be sane again...soon enough...soon enough

welp this will just have to be my snack for the nite..

oh btw...i've come to the point where i'm like don't-care-just-wanna-pass-get-this-done-with-and-over

hmph~

no more lectures!!

well...just to announce tht i'm officially done with all my lectures!!!!!!
no more workshops, tutorials, lectures and whatever knots!~

3 years and 3 months have gone by and I'm in my final semester of my undergrad masters =)

happy and eager yet i've already miss the life back in IMU and no doubt will miss my uni days in Glasgow as well =)

it was a heck of a roller-coaster ride!~ But nonetheless a great one =D

we took our a picture on the last day of lectures and the next last one will be the day we all graduate together...imagine that! Fionna Tan is actually going to graduate from med school with a master's of pharmacy =)
oh did i ever mention i was like in the naughtiest and nosiest and worst class when i was in primary school? ....red was the color that brighten up my report card ^^

well well....i'm gonna be a graduate soon enough

eager and excited and the whole prospects of a new chapter of life that awaits me and of course the dash of anxiousness and doubt and worry do come along now and than =) i am human after all

below is a video that one of my batchmates did, we played it on our last day of lectures before we took the pictures...a great video!!!


btw P105-ers, do join in facebook the P105 group so that we can stay connected...and you can join in bebo to connect with the home students...most of them are on bebo...look me up at both accounts and you can link up with the rest =)

P105 rocks!~

d magic elixir

*^^ thks G for fixing the picture

Anyway, this past few days I have turned nocturnal and sleeping at 5 or 6am in the morning...yea it's the time of the year, where I'm packed up with assignments..

I think this semester is the worst in assignment terms, but than again, there are others who've already finished XD
well I had to do a resit for a paper, PP3 (pharmacy practice 3) which is totally irrelevant to my future nor my degree...but fortunately or unfortunately I still need to pass it XD
that was the reason, Alicia told me why we didn't manage to finish our assignments earlier..haha

oh well..back to the magic elixir ...yea none other than panax ginseng!~
been keeping me alive these few days, with the lil sleep I'm getting

plus i was working yesterday and today ^^
was brilliant though, i love conferences and events...i just simply love the buzz of it
although it's tiring but it's fun at the same time =D
unlike my studies, which in Fionna's term is life draining =p

it's my last semester after all...the last time I'm gonna be studying for exams in a University!!!! No more lectures!!!! At least in the context of Uni ^^
excited & eager to see what awaits me
but yet i'm enjoying it all at the same time!!!! Not so much on studying though but the ppl and things that are involved in it =)
that was what kept me at Uni after all..the people..the things that I was doing :D
if it was just for the sake of the degree, i would have left loooong time ago...I don't need a degree to do what I wanna do, though it helps I must say

I think my magic elixir is wearing off on it's effect...I'm getting sleepy!!

CPP

clinical pharmacology & prescribing....maybe I got the name wrong...but not bothered by it now

i'm one day behind my schedule of getting this essay done -_-
it's just taking sooo long~
the more i read and the more i do it, the more annoyed I get...

i wonder what's taking my brain cells to get working up there....hmmm....
*grunts grunts grunts*

oh well...i wonder if i ever will miss this part of Uni life??...who knows ...maybe I will...XD

breathing breathing breathing

with a hot cup of green tea, sitting on my desk
music playing on my itunes
the soft tones of incandescent lights
the smooth black matte

a time for everything
chocolates, crackerbreads, pringles
imaginary skipping
the sun the beach the sea
life underwater
colors winds snow

it's time to get back to my work....

at last! - balloch

well the PMR (patient medical records) sure took me longer than I expected to finish it up!!!!

anyway before I start on my CPP --> single vessel disease...something to do with your heart..I haven't start reading yet so spare me XD

I wanna just show off some of my photos from the country walk!! Balloch is the place~
Wei Meng, Khai Yong & Xin Yin went along too...but so far I think only WM blogged it ^^ hey KY and XY if you guys blogged it, put your links down in the comment =)

Balloch Country Park: Near Loch Lomond

i just love snapping photos =)

thus i am always behind

that's the balloch castle nothing much to shout about

it just all depends on the angle you are viewing it from

squishy-squashy muddy puddy = FUN

it was a cloudy day

a beautiful & serene place for a hospice =) for kids...it's all public funded!

i might consider opening up a stall to sell my prints ^^

the walking group =D at the top

swans are just so photogenic & the way they swim airs with grace

i like this shot! VAIN haha his name is just too hard for me to pronounce =p

the first primroses = spring awaits to bloom

ahh i love the walk!! the fresh air!! the wind!! thank God for a fine weather = no rain! But wish we had a good 5mins of sun to get better pictures =D
nonetheless it was fun!! a fairly easy walk =) no stamina required

for those of you whose interested just grab a train from Queen St. £4.60 return to Balloch station and there you are =) about an hour train ride
we went to Lomond Shores as well, a nice shopping complex with a cafe overlooking the loch and a Sea World which looks pretty interesting =)

points for Drug Delivery Systems =D

welp in regards with me being so lazy...I've decided to scour through some papers and develop some reading materials ^^

since it's in softcopy..i might as well share it :)

Chapters that are being examined: (for the sake of you juniors :)
Time-delayed oral drug delivery
Routes of Admin: Pulmonary Route
Liposomal
Dermal & Transdermal

2002 stuff
paper 1
paper 2 (updated)
paper 3

2003 stuff
paper 1
paper 2

2004 stuff
paper 1 (updated left out a part)


feel free to share ^^
sharing is caring --> whoever has any additional info or if there's some mistakes do let me know :)

all the best ppl!~

library bumming

here i am in the library...using some weird odd brands of computer...lousy keyboard....

while at home sits my sleek and elegant looking macbook black ^^

oh well...as you might have guessed...exams are up..and the only way for me to get some solid time and work done...is in the library itself!
next monday...I've got drug delivery systems paper...and not really doing anything much about it..cause I've got my research lab going on at the same time...

i am getting a hang of my research ...labs are soo cool...well maybe when it comes to typing those stuff down ...i might not like it as much after all....having it as a part time thing ain't too bad...but making it my life?!?!...i highly doubt it

anyway...off to the gym...haven't been in there for this whole week yet!

ooo at last i brought my camera along with me...so i took quite a good few pictures of my labs and the stuff tht i'm working on just now =)

chinese teas

Fionna's ever brilliant brain has churned out one of the best ideas of all time!
haha yea yea i know...i'm full of myself





anyway...my research project: Chinese Tea ^^
so I'm pretty much a good amateur on the subject, as I've been reading loads n loads n loads n loads of it =)
YOU are soo gonna want to read my paper because it's written in Fionna's style =D and after reading my paper you are just gonna be as good as me in regards to Chinese Tea =)

I should have been done with it long time ago but I keep editing it, adding my flavor into a science paper...ahh tough work!

for the past 2 hours I've been facebooking! Messaging peeps which I haven't heard for ages!! So yea...doing my part of connecting with people ^^

anyway drinking chinese tea is seriously good for your health =D and picking it up as a hobby is not such a bad thing either!~ I'm planning to do that too..like I've written early..oh I'm focusing in particular to green tea and white tea :D

white tea??
yup..tell you later what's white tea all about laa

this article was inspired by amanda lim wei yin who asked me what was my research project about ^^ which is good...so I don't havta repeat myself a gazillion times to everyone who ask XD